Life is full of shit

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I woke up this morning with the same thoughts on my mind I carried to bed with me. I know from experience not to go to bed carrying any weight from the day that doesn’t benefit being taken with me into the NEXT day. While here in Oregon, on this retreat I assumed I would find massive clarity and lighten my life’s emotional load. 

Let’s be honest…

LIFE IS A FULL OF SHIT. 💩 

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My highest highs and lowest lows come DAILY. I don’t always have weeks of solitude or even days. I struggle moment to moment to keep sane and tame my thoughts before they run wild, become out of control and pull me deep down into a hell inside of myself. 

It appears that over the past few decades we have turned “positive thinking” into a new way of life. We have entered into a New Age philosophy where humans all around us assume that “positive thinking” is the way to a more fulfilling life. 

Here’s a little truth bomb 💣…

MOMENTS ARE GOING TO BE UNCOMFORTABLE, THEY WILL FEEL SHITTY, YOU’LL BE ANNOYED, AGGRAVATED AND YOU’RE GOING TO WISH THINGS WERE DIFFERENT.  

You’re going to hate yourself and love yourself over and over again within your life. You’ll find happiness and sadness all in one day. You will fall to your knees crying and begging for an understanding to the same “God” that you praise and thank a day later for saving you by providing you what you needed. 

You will struggle to understand who you are and what the point and purpose to any of this is. Finances, relationships and events within your life will contribute to the personality that develops creating the YOU that you identify with. You will tell people the “story” of your life and be the person you THINK you are. Over and over again you will repeat to yourself the experience you had and how it made you feel. You will carry this story📚 with you for life.

It is…

YOUR LIFE STORY. 📖 

I can go on and on and tell you how to change your way of thinking, how to change your life story and how to create something that brings you joy instead of misery but let’s be honest…

You will only hear what you need to hear and when you need to hear it. 

“When the student is ready the teacher will appear.” 👩‍🏫 

In life, YOU will make yourself so uncomfortable that all that will be left to do is make a massive change. You will become so tired of repeating and dealing with the same shitty 💩 outcomes that you will realize it’s time TO TAKE CONTROL OVER YOUR LIFE. 

So the next time things “feel shitty” all you have to do is wait…

Eventually you will get so tired of smelling the shit that you will make manure to grow yourself a garden of roses. 

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🥀 🥀 🌹 🥀 🥀 

 

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